GLAMour Puss

totally dead

2010-02-22T02:41:00.001+08:00

i know my blog's dead and hardly anyone will bother coming to read up, but i'm juzt trying to see what will happen should i post this up =p

busily tired and tiredly busy

2009-02-26T14:17:00.007+08:00

i've been so really busy lately, working, brunei trip meetings with the onions and make up trainings.

i've at last got my kayak 1star~ woots~ but it was quite easy though. congrats on those who took it and passed with me!!

peektures~

dinner with the Ettusais gals at hong kong cafe. just after a real intensive make up training

poor me watching their food while i sat there starving......

me and shirley

angela and lydia, the 2 really 'old bird'

brunei meeting~

the onions are a blast!! and i really enjoyed makeing them dance weird chereographies like the indian dance. rizza really cracks me up man!

me and zul

me, eunice and qayyum. the uber bimbotic/bitchy trio.

love love

kaman & jun yuan's 21st b'day bbq.

saw this really cute swift!! it was so poohlishly pimped!

guess who's that.

gambling den.

for those who thought that me and mr horny are over, here's a picture to prove that we're not! haha. people keeps asking just coz i've hardly put up any photos of him anymore. here ya go~

me and shu fang~

lol, the literal '3 layers of fat' in chinese. think joanne and shu fang wants this photo. haha

joanne and yan ming

those chicken wings are MINE. don't even think about it.

ding wen's in charge of 'penging' my chicken wings.

mr horny has been keping an eye on that guy in black all night!! peeping through the curtaikns and all. he thinks that black guy was trying to pick me up. although he really is a boring conversationalist. who talks to a girl he meets for the first time about stock markets?? lucky i watch channel news asia almost every morning thus i can proufly say i sound quite intellectual. *sniggers*

bunch of half naked guys with no figures walking around.......

mr horny gave me a GINORMOUS card and 6 eeyores for our 18th month. hmmm, and someone was just telling me that we're not celebrating.....

love,

chanel

ps: please don't rain tomorrow~~ i wanna go del mar and have my fries!!

in times of grief and sorrow, i will hold you and rock you, and take your grief and make it my own. when you cry, i cry, and when you hurt, i hurt. and together we will try to hold back the floods of tears and despair and meke it throught the potholed streets of life. everyday we have together is the greatest day of my life. i will always be yours and my darling, you will always be mine.

our souls were one if you must know

and never shall they be apart;

with splendid dawn, your face aglow

i reach for you and find my heart.

the notebook;nicholas sparks

BUSY busy Busy

2009-02-16T15:43:00.006+08:00

BUSY busy Busy

and i really am!! started working at Etusais again, all my beloved girls~~ misses~

Valentine's this year, yea, i know it was really big, but just too bad i can't have a taste of it. oh well, its just another day. note: trying to be optimistic.

presents from everyone but the most important person. in case all you guys are wondering what i did for mr horny this year, well, its a secret. had quite a tiff with him that made me throw it away. 3 days of working on it after work went down the rubbish chute.

working has been realy hectic that i'm seldom online. i know lotsa people misses me *blushes*. god damn.... i'm becoming more narcisstic as ever, all thanks to a certain someone's influence. yes, you know who you are. stop smiling to your computer's screen. RAWRR

D&D at Marriot's~
wearing a dres without a bra brings back memories on the runway. me and qian qian. lovesfrigging completed hairstyle which took a gazillion pins and half and hour just to remove them.

LV madness

CAFE DEL MAR (MOAN)~~

i wanna bring back that Taittinger~~~~

my singapore sling~ not as tropical as my all-time fav Malibu pineapple

jezz drinking hoegarden's foam. yes, jason(the one in white speedos) knocked the glass so hard it stated foaming up and overflowing all into the pool. no wonder the pool smells vaguely of beer.

HEY~!! take picture without persmission ar~~!! guess who's hot silhoutte is that.

lonely~ i am so lonely~~i have nobody~~ of my own~~

more alcohol please~~ and the pina colada's mine. thank you very much.

basking in the sun

shiat~~ friggin unglam. whoch idiot took this?????

HAPPY VALENTINE'S EVERYONE~

its too sweet to be eaten~~ notice the sprinkles are heart-shaped too??? thanks to that random person whom i don't even know. haha. sounds so weird...

just dance~~~~it'll be ok..

love,

chanel

fucked up chinese new year

2009-01-27T22:15:00.005+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR~

notice why i left out the word happy??? coz it was far from happy.

first, i lost my friggin ALDO SHOES. YES, i am so going to hell and i'm gonna be bringing the bastard who stole my friggin shoes down to hell with me!!!!!!!!

URGHHH~~~~~

secondly, i had to quarrel with mr horny. wait, it was not even a quarrel, but more of a cold war. haiz, i dun even know what to do with us now.

people please advice?

last day of school~~~!!!!

us girls trying to seduce sasi

dancerz inc~ modern ballet hip hop

class of E55A. love em..

chinese new year at granny's~

all ze girls of the family

brothers and sisters......

HELP! stalker guy outside my house since 4!!!! banging on my friggin door non-stop. had to stop jonathon from coming down or calling the police. shits......

love

chanel

mr horny's birthday

2009-01-22T11:36:00.015+08:00

PROCRASTINATION: BIG TIME

been up to so many things lately (both emotionally and physically) that i have hardly time for myself!

went partyworld for karaoke just before the new year with Chloe! suppose to be in a humongous company but at the end its just us. oh well, its a date between me and chloe.

going back to Ettusais. thanks to lotsa psychoing on Chloe's part.

baby Leo is my lil' treasure~

Leo's personal seat on the way to grooming, on the DASHBOARD

locked up..........

mr horn's trapped under the car!! the twist is his sign for help -_-'''

love leo's paws after grooming!! kawaii neh~

Nam's version of mr horny, on a sausage mcmuffin

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QI~ 130109

me and eunice and our hard work!!!! taekwondo gals~

kayaking sea expedition!! uberly fun!! while other facilitators are treating their students to pizzas, we get seawater and seaweed. nam peng you just can't keep himself outta the picture! grrrr.... RAWRR

group picture!! still waiting for the kayaking photos from yvonne. one of the most tiring days of my life. back home with body full of aches

and despite the aches, i had to make mr horny's strawberry cheesecake cake, which failed quite terribly =(

joanthon!!! sobs..... impart your skills of cake making to me pretty please~

sandy trying to look scary...

adam and sandy

CAM-WHORING. please excuse, its been a long time since i did this, and i wanted to catch a pic of my red hair!

the innocence presented is such a sham behind that facade

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MR HORNY~ 160109

shuai ge~~~ *blushes* and he belongs to me. same cliche birthday wish.. 21 le hor, gotta be more mature yea~

me and sandy as receptionist, free labour =(

don't mr horny look really natural with all that afro???

me and my band~~

happy birthday to you~~~~

mr horny's parents doing the famous 'chicken dance'

love,

chanel

ps: for those asking me about that stalker, yes, he still is calling me repeatedly, really getting on my nerves whenever i see his number on my screen. and no, i don't need people to send me home. i've got my baby to do that

2009-01-09T09:08:00.002+08:00

HEY FREAK, LOOK HERE

yes, you. i know you have been reading my blog for the longest time(almost 2 years, as you claim), does seem to know alot of my life, BUT YOU DON'T. so don't claim that you know me enough to love me. don't put it in your mind that i will accept you or go into a relationship with you. i HARDLY know you!

so what if you're not singaporean, rich,model, and have a good body. i hate desperados.

when a girl does not answer your call or return your messages, don't you get the idea??? or maybe you're just that dense behind those muscles and egoistic facade you have.

so why don't you do us all a favour and STOP HARASSING ME.

i've had enough of your endless calls, cynical messages and demeaning pursuit. i've had enough of your stalking, seeming knowing wherever i am or whatever i'm doing. if you think you're making an impression, you're so right! a bad impression that is.

I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE WHEREVER I GO. WHO I HANG OUT WITH IS TOTALLY NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.

SO STOP FOLLOWING ME!!

2009-01-07T10:35:00.002+08:00

enough with all the messed up things that started as soon as the new year started. i know i'm a lil too late, but, resolutions for the new year is always a tradition which needs holding up right?(even if i totally don't follow them)

quick recap on resolutions 2008
-more faith in my Daddy God
- spend more QUALITY time with family and friends
- love myself more than ever
- LESS PROCRASTINATING
- be more involved in class especially during MATHS AND SCIENCE
- reduce shopping expenses (if only)
- earn more ka-chings $$$$$
- be less forgetful- tone ABS......
- bike/car license (mr horny's gonna kill me)
- get islander card and UOB clear card
- try not to turn down modelling opportunities

did almost NONE, except for the fisrt 2 resolutions.

ANYWAY

resolutions 2009
- more faith in my Daddy God
- spend more QUALITY time with family and friends
- love myself more than ever
- LESS PROCRASTINATING
- get mood and emotions in check
- be a good gf (and meaning it)
- earn more $$$
- NO MORE heart breaks, more self-love
- watch CATS the musical
- tone abs (lifetime long resolution)
- car license!!
- start private blog; or maybe i should just stick to writing in a diary?

everything has come to pass. ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
just how long can i live with this??

2009-01-06T12:00:00.003+08:00

i don't know what i'm feeling now, but what i know is, i'm lost. i know i've never really develop feelings for him(j) to any extend.

i'm just really jealous.

which girl do not want to have that perfect relationship? which girl do not want her bf to be there for her? to feel loved and needed? to love and be loved?

mr horny,

if you're reading this, which i know you will, and may not be happy about it. but all these time, i feel like i'm on my own. although i have a bf, i don't feel anything that should come from a relationship. can you even remember the last time you said you miss me? the number of times you will actually call randomly? how bout the last time you called me 'sugar' or 'baby'?

you know i hardly ask you for anything, all i want is us to go back to how we used to be, contented with each other's company,before all this crap even started. i wanted to put all my feelings on you, during that period of time when you were so sweet, but just when i'm confident enough and opened my heart to you again, you've gotta go back being the 'you' that i hate, making me heart broken all over again.

you were the one who wanted to meet and also the one who decided against that.
you were the one who wanted to talk about what went wrong, but also the one who did not want to talk in the end.

i've tried to change, but why do you have to make things so difficult? i'm really tired of quarrelling, which i think you can see, so why can't we just for once try to make things work?

from the bottom of your heart, do you still want to be with me for a lifetime? if not, then why are you still wasting your time? please just tell me, i really want to know what you are thinking.

love,
chanel

ps: fecking ankle sprained, there goes my jog..
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pss: on second thoughts, i think it should still be on! helps me take my mind of things.

torn..

2009-01-05T17:22:00.006+08:00

seriously, i'm torn.

J asked me: 'what will be the perfect proposal'

i'm so regretting teaching him how to woo that girl. now, he's living my fantasies of the perfect boyfriend to another girl. random calls in the afternoon just to say how much he misses her, buying her dresses on occasions, just being there for her when she needs him, and so on....

i know i should be feeling happy for him, but it seems like a part of me is torn away. he has always been there for me, looking out for my welfare and my family's. i know i have been very unfair to him, but yet, he somehow made me think that he will always be there. like his feelings for me will never change even if Angelina Jolie wanted to be with him.

i know its very selfish of me to think that way and i should'nt be envious since i'm always the one turning him down. but i don't know why i started crying over the phone.

something he said really touched me, when i asked why is it that he is willing to spend every cent on a girl he likes(judging from the watch incident, and he recently spent $300 plus just to get a couple ring((as per my idea)) from Lee Hwa((NOT my idea)).

he said:
if you love someone with all your heart, you just want to give that person the best of everything. what is money? it's just something which can be spent and earned back again. but to earn the heart of someone, that means so much more that just money. you can spent an entire lifetime saving every pennny, but in the end, its from the satisfaction of seeing the smile on her face that makes it all worth while.

word for word, no paraphrasing. and to think i cried while he said those words.

he told me he did not regret waiting for me, although he felt really heartbroken and lost each time i rejected him. despite it all, in the end, he will be there for me whenever i need a shoulder to cry on. and to think that he believes things between me and shaun will have a good ending if we just hold on together.

why now?? at this circumstances??? if shaun and i were back how we used to be, i would have gladly congratulated him. but now, i can't help being so jealous.....

i'm tired of our really petty quarrels, but that seems to be what's revolving around us. even if we're not quarrelling, and even if we're seating nest to each other, there's nothing to talk about. like there's a wall of silence seperating the both of us, keeping each of us in our own little mind, thinking what should we say next. is that the effect of a long-term relationship?? and to think people will think otherwise.

i no longer feel like he loves me, and we're together just for the sake of once being passionately in love.....

ps: nauseus headache came back, not sure if its my aneamia acting up.. cramping like mad, think i'll jog it off later.

pss: i know this is not the right time, but i feel like i'm falling, in and out.

2008-12-31T16:05:00.004+08:00

why can't we just celebrate it extra special?
so what if it's just another year gone by?? s
so what if you think we may have alot more new year/christmases in the future?

why can't you just treat every moment with me like it's your last?

i really want to look back in the near future, and at least have a smile on my face that i've spent the turning point of another new year especially happy with you......

and that we have not been wasting time together.

i wanna love him with every fibre of my being. but why does he makes it so difficult? how can he be so selfish and sarcastic and always just thinks for himself, refusing to care about the tears that i shed? i try to make things work but why can't he just compromise??

he says he won't change back, but look what i've become?

christmas is here~~~~and gone.......

2008-12-30T00:28:00.016+08:00

a whole loada things has been happening ever since school closed! its kinda crazy i must admit and i've got photos to prove. as i am really lazy to organize it in chronological order, i'm just going to start with the most recent one yea.

prove that me and kel are truely loving lebians that we dyed our hair the sme colour! loads of fun man, i won't mind doing her hair for her again. hiacks hiacks hiacks....

mr horny at the entrance of Crown Plaza Changi Airport. went there for some wedding lunch.

mr horny bonding with the fried bird's head.

i simply love their toilet!! perfect for major cam-whoring sessions!!

and this is what happens when people get too bored while waiting for food to be served.

i can't say how many times this picture has stopped me from shitting....

taken in the cubicle itself!!! they have a bigass mirror in every cubicle!

lurrrve this photo. it gives a whole new meaning to 'multi-dimensional'

the subtle entrance of the hotel.

MERRY CHRISTMAS~~

me and my baby, looking kinda vampire-ish

and he just can't stop kissing me.

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING DEPICTS MR HORNY AS A MODEL-WANNABE

my baby leo lookin frigging cute~~~ *squeeze cheeks*

merry christmas baby~

christmas celebration at jezz's

absolute vodka promoter

my sis amidst her prezzies..

beloved bro of mine

wahahahaha~~ i've got more prezzies than her!!

met up with kel for some really really last minute shopping on christmas eve!!

christmas with the gals~

aries aries aries....

christmas service at the indoor stadium

absolutely random photos..

hippie pooh

what do you see when you look at me??

leo loves eeyore too!!

don't you agree that mr horny has got the face of a POSB card promoter?

smitten by this tree!!! masquerade theme.... nice!!

till i blog again....

HAPPY NEW YEAR~~!!

just in case i don't blog by then.

love,

chanel

why wait?? procrastinating now.....

2008-12-28T17:38:00.003+08:00

been really busy and up to my neck these few days. but i PROMISE, i will blog before the new year starts ok????

hell loada photos to upload it might takes years...............

note to self: stop procrastinatin and lying to self how busy you are. face up to reality that it is just plain laziness.

ps: STOP COMPLAINING PEOPLE. i know i haven update in a loooong time!! i'm just......a lil busy, that's all.

christmas = shopping galore~

2008-12-12T11:19:00.002+08:00

oh yay oh yay, shopping, i mean, christmas season is here!!!

lotsa prezzies to buy, too lil money =(

christmas sales everywhere is tempting me. don't care!! mr horny bring me to VIVOCITY!! need shopping...........................................

ANYWAY, Majolica Majorca is here!! brought in by the much beloved Shiseido. lotsa thanks. little confession: i've never tried any Majolica Majorca products before, but i'm friggin' in love with their packaging! its like Anna Sui, minus the grunge and pumped up in royalty!!

Majolica Majorca is available in watson stores almost islandwide.

proof:

WATSON'S PARKWAY PARADE
WATSON'S NGEE ANN CITY
WATSON'S NORTHPOINT
WATSON'S TIONG BAHRU PLAZA
WATSON'S IMM
WATSON'S TOA PAYOH (HDB HUB)
WATSON'S SUNTEC CITY MALL
WATSON'S TAMPINES MALL
WATSON'S JURONG POINT
WATSON'S WEST MALL
WATSON'S LOT 1
WATSON'S FUNAN
WATSON'S WISMA ATRIA
WATSON'S BEDOK CENTRAL
WATSON'S PLAZA SINGAPURA
WATSON'S WEST COAST
WATSON'S NOVENA SQUARE
WATSON'S FAR EAST PLAZA
WATSON'S VIVOCITY
WATSON'S LUCKY PLAZA
WATSON'S PARCO BUGIS JUNCTION
WATSON'S EASTPOINT
WATSON'S BUKIT PANJANG PLAZA
WATSON'S ANCHORPOINT
WATSON'S JUNCTION 8
WATSON'S HOUGANG MALL
WATSON'S YEW TEE
WATSON'S MARINA SQUARE

it's so going unto my shopping list. a christmas present for myself!!

mr horny: i know i got myself a VS makeup bag and i said it was my x'mas prezzie for myself, but nobody said you cannot give mulitple prezzies yea??

fun over the looooong weekend

2008-12-09T09:36:00.011+08:00

whole loada photos to upload, and it's not becuase i procrastinated, but i was super duper busy over the weekends, it was crazy. sleep everynight was super sweet. =)

fri~

had kayaking lesson. fun fun FUN!!! photo-taking all the way.

sandy is evil, she don't intend to save me, instead she just wanna have her photo taken.

silly eunice at the back trying to steal the limelight.

act cute............... =_='''

me and anis

kayaking is tiring man..........

jina the photographer in the pink cap.

us and the sea monster~!!

raft up!

note: look how serious azim looks.

after school~ seletar country club~

a really 'handsome' photo of mr horny. caught in mid-sneeze

black coconut drifting by~

sugarstars and honeymoon

and he can't stop kissing me =p

see how prepared cam-whoring mr horny is. still preparing the cam he's already posing.

acting gay

seletar animal resort~that's a real bird!

which seems to have a long testicle hanging from it's neck

an animal that mr horny has never seen before and scares him

the iguana and chinchillas were living in the same cage

wabbits~

more wabbits...

standard chartered marathon 2008~
was at the padang at 2am!!!

ended up sleeping on the cardboard on the grass.

one word : pathetic

mel sleeping on top of our bottled water fortress... too dark coz it was 6 in the morning!

and all these will end up on the floor when the race ends

and the very first runners are here!! at record time!!! in less than an hour they reached our station, which is 24km away from the starting point.

artistic yea?

and at 10, i still don't see mr horny amidst the crowd. the crazy retard was retarded enough to enter the full mararthon, which is 42km.

and there mr horny is, in the blue shirt, cannot be bothered to run despite being 25m away from the finish line. can't even PRETEND for photo's sake.

at the end..... he took 8hrs 32mins.. *shakes head*

whatever happened to my marathoner?

i almost called the police to report a missing person.

mr horny is SO in the christmas spirit already =p

love,

chanel

happy birthday burning and addison!

2008-12-02T14:41:00.002+08:00

i am such a procrastinator that it disgusts me.

been stuck on a japanese drama called '1 litre of tears' which i think is an underation in its name. i think i cried more than 10 litres, including those suppressed ones in class that made my tear ducts hurt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BURNING AND ADDISON

addison( water-based facilitator) with the geeky smile and burning trying to act gu-niang

less than half the class of E55A~

mr horny gave me yet another Eeyore to add to my collection~

at the expanse of lying to me. *tsk tsk*

but still, its really sweet, of going all the way to plaza sing just to get me this 'horse-like-duper-cute' Eeyore which caught my eye the day before.

sheep was from me =)

smuggled it all the way from Genting Highland.

mr horny satisfied at being able to eat Roti-Proti(inside joke) at jln kayu.

love,

chanel

ps: Quarantine is a show for the sadists of the world. the only show that makes me sink all the way in my seat till i see nothing but the chair in front.

pss: sorry mr horny for trying your hands into the air a few times in the movie due to shock. i was shocked.... -_-'''

stressed tired and all that crap

2008-11-28T14:39:00.003+08:00

i'm so darn tired man. despite the break from school to M'sia, i still feel the fatiguness. almost can't bring myself outta bed if not for the nagging phonecall of Nam to get me to wake up.

at the end, school today sucked. it might be fun if i were to go into the water, but no chance. gotta rush for an event after school. oh yea, and there's UT. crap. now i gotta really really REALLY rush. UT finishes at 445, i gotta be there at changi by 530.

if only red bull really gives you wings,

J was nice enough to offer me a ride there despite it not being on the way. but i rejected due to the numerous rumours flying around about us.

forgotten to do module selection, and was asked to meet the program chair, only to be told that i do not need to select any, coz i've been put into the first batch to go for Industrial Attachment.

ANYWAY, a really funny conversation between me and eunice.

eunice: i'm so jealous that a german guy likes her
me: lol. but germans reminds me of Adolf Hitler. wahahaha. with his moustach and all
eunice: that kinda turns me on~
me: omg!! i prefer irishmen. their accent is sooooo sexy~~
eunice: sexy, i think the uncle steaming the corn is sexy!!

wahahha~~

ok, inside joke

love
chanel

malacca trip

2008-11-27T09:27:00.015+08:00

i'm back !!!!

went on a trip for some bonding time with the family.

first up..... a photo to scare you guys!!

yes, mr horny's wearing my fake lashes.

shit loada photos from the trip!

1st day~

the 'condo' i stayed in, at A'famosa intergrated resort, Tampin.

my bro trying to spoil a very 'family' photo.

went to malacca for some really good balls!!!

chicken rice balls that is...

shame on you for those who though otherwise... go cleanse that perverted mind of your's

yum~~~

a really interesting and straightforward condom pack. mr horny, this is for you! =p

2nd day

went up to Genting Highlands via cable car

waiting for some really expensive bak kut teh

Ripley's Believe it or not museum. best museum ever~

he loves me. picture speaks for itself

history of playing cards

sitting on the chair which belongs to the world's tallest men! my leg could hardly reach the floor man.

hand of the tallest man, who can hold 6 eggs in one hand

2 rams that died in battle entangled in each other's horns

mutated calf.

its a real squirrel!!

haiz, i'm so short

ties ties ties. kinkyness....

3rd day

gawd~~ take a look at that organ!!!!!

go-carting OFF-ROAD STYLE~

first up, my bro behind the wheel. smooth ride despite the bumby road

me~~!!!! and i made this ride the worst ever in my bro's life.

how'dya like grass smacking your face and almost vomitting out lunch. add some mud and VOILA~

all thanks to mr horny for driving techniques. i'm such a good student.

driving like a pro. one hand on the wheel, another swearing away.

my bro and his beloved V200

and did i mention i'm a pro at archery too??? god, i'm so talented =)

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HAH~ beat that

giddy up giddy up~~ wait. this is wrong. should'nt my prince be on this instead??

haven for farm animals, where you'll see bull and goats, chicken ducks and goose, all in social cohesion.

stare what stare?!?!?!

seafood dinner at the Portugese settlement , Malacca.

watched 'body of lies' with mr horny at the Grand Cathay.

he got me beggin him for mercy~ so won't he release me~

plain retards

lurve this pic!!

haiz, he does not conceade to my seductions.still can give that smurfy smile

housewarming at my auntie's place 40 stories high!

love,

chanel

PP passed~~~!!!

2008-11-20T09:06:00.007+08:00

oh yea oh yea oh yea~~~

i could not get any happier today!!

PP PASSED~~~!!!!

happy happy happy....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY~!

sorry kelly dear for forgettng your birthday. I should be banished to bad girl hell for this. for your present, i shall give ya all my LURVE~

and a present when you get around meeting me *winks*

went for a Mannequine International event last friday.

me and chloe on the bus trip there

teresa chloe me~

nam and his birthday prezzie...... a NAM BEAR!!

love,

chanel

peek into my life!

2008-11-12T08:39:00.007+08:00

i'm too lazy to blog. so i've just spammed my own blog with pictures that have i have put on hold for the longest time due to procrastination.

on the receiving end of loadsa love from my baby boy Leo~!

baby Leo when he was still not so hyperactive

Leo is Pooh in disguise!

bouldering~ was stuck in that position for almost 5 mins WITHOUT HARNESS! Nam peng you was happily snapping pictures away

Happy Halloween 2008~

this year's halloween was worse than expected. lotsa things cocked up and ending pissed drunk with lotsa puke on me thanks to my dearest bro desmond.

the decor of Double O. Nam was evil enough to psycho me all the way there when i was suppose to go Zouk instead

woots~ Nissan GTR 35. i swear the driver tried to pick me up. but i was more interested in his car. Wahahah

note: don't question my costume. i know i don't like i am in one. but i was suppose to be Venus, Goddess of Love, but i think i look more like prostitute. blearghx~ dressed too sluttily.

my bro trying to be a mad scientist, only ending up to be a drunken scientist.

WTF is with my face colour and skin colour???

i swear he actually worte the whole periodic table up his sleeves

extreme cuteness! a dog in Japan

is this mr horny's sister Shauna??

or is this another proof that he is somewhat gay.......

oh well. he is my 'WIFE' afterall.

mr horny relieving his childhood.

on the top of a 40 storeyed HDB FLATNam peng you in specs!!
our midnight supper club!! the amount of food i swear is enough for 10 people when there was only 4 of us!!

random photo of my Eeyore collection. this DOES NOT INCLUDE cups, pencil boxes, etc..

last but not least........

I hereby charge this man guilty to the charges laid out

1) unauthorise drilling into my heart and staying within .

2) Giving him that love without limit.

all appeal will be rejected.

love,

chanel

2008-11-10T18:53:00.003+08:00

mind over heart or heart over mind.

please tell me what i should do.

he tells me he likes me, but really, i don't think i'll have the guts to 'try it out' with you. afterall, i still have a bf, and i don't want to be like those girls who will break up with them for another guy. and besides, i have enough on my mind now to care about some infatuation nonsense. so, i guess, all i can say is for you to wait, if you really like me.

burn, your blog just made me cry. so i'll lift something from you for the result of making me cry.

"When she has happiness, I'll be its insulator. When she has sadness, I'll share it with her. When she has fear, I'll hug her 'till our limbs go numb. When she has anger, I'll smile and let her hit me, and smile some more. A perfect relationship isn't 'happily ever after', it's about being there to love and be loved by these setbacks. To be happy because of the good things, as well as the bad - that's the 'perfectest' love of them all."

"Ever since she accidentally swam into my eyes; it took me an instant to fall in love, but a year to realize it. The 48 weeks that I spent knowing her, cannot compare to the last week that slithered by, because that week will evolve into the most meaningful years of being by her side and keeping her smiling."

but too bad, setbacks can take away eveything, even the one you have grown to love in the first place. and i find myself thinking, why did i fall for him in the first place?

ok. i'm jealous

paranoia

2008-11-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

maybe i'm just being paranoid again. i dunno. i'm just so scared.

i need a shoulder to cry on.

privacy please

2008-11-04T10:52:00.002+08:00

one can never get privacy on this blog. even when i lock it, people like mr horny complains 'unblog your blog!'

think its time to start another one, one where i can have all my verbal vomit there and yet have the priviledge of knowing that no one else will know.

told him that we should not meet too much, and for now, it should be limited to weekend for this week. i don't know what kinda outcome it will be, just hoping for the best. that is, if i really am taking up too much of his time. but since that's what his friends have been complaining about, and that they mean so much to him, i guess its time for me to step back. call it reverse pschology, yada yada, call it all you want.

we've hardly spend much time together, even during my holidays, judging that he keep wanting to go out with his friends. but oh well, something's gotta give right?

talked to the most unlikely of guys last night that even Eunice got a shock on why i would talk to him, and he's not jason, and i found out that he is not as terrible as i thought, that is if he does not have an ulterior motive. but instead, he really just listened and commented by saying the weirdest things possible like '' believe me, if this were to continue, it will fall even faster than the stock market''. *lost*

but talking to him has added one more worry on my list. damn.

amotivated to do anything, seriously, not even sleeping. what can i say, i don't even know why i'm jealous when i see loving couples walking on the streets, as if they can see nothing else but just each other.

sighs. oh well. much as i want to see him everyday and make him stay by my side every single minute, i've just got to learn how to let him go.

smoking kills

2008-10-26T14:57:00.002+08:00

smoking is bad you bitch.

but, i can get over it, can i? its not like i'm addicted or anything, its just 7 sticks a day, no biggie right???

fucking clement chew fucking hell backstabbed me.
who are you to say that i'm a waste of time, money and petrol??
do you even know anything that me and him have gotten through?
how dare you say i'm a waste of money when most of the time i've bee supporting myself??
first you backstabbed my boyfrend and now me?
who do you think you are you cunt?

yes, i know that i maybe quite a bitch sometimes and I AM DETERMINED TO CHANGE, but that still do not give you the right to go around ruining other people's relationship and lives!

for whatever you did in the past, yes, i still hate you for it, and now i know its fucking wrong of me to have hidden the fucking truth away from my bf, how much of a fucking hell bastard backstabber you can be.

DO NOT say its annabelle's fib to try to get you when you bloody hell know what is your own fucking intentions when you fucking hell decided to ignore his calls.

and for the rest of you fucking backstabbers out here, FUCKING HELL MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS! nobody needs your fucking opinions on the decisions they make and how they run their lives. DO NOT MESS WITH ME. don't say i didn't warn you.

depression...

2008-10-20T14:11:00.002+08:00

when will this feeling go away? when can i stop doubting his feelings for me? although i want to believe him, i can't stop feeling this way. getting really really scared. will we be able to get past this? i really want us to last, but it feels almost deja vu, the same feelings i had when feng wanted to leave me.

he keeps askin me to stop thinking, but how can i not? i try to keep up my facade but i can only do this much. how can i tell him that deep down inside, i am actually really scared and have no confidence in the future anymore.

i don't know what to do anymore. taking one step at a time.....

feelings of loss and a blood stained tissue

2008-10-18T13:23:00.002+08:00

i have no idea why i am feeling this way. it feels like feng all over again or that a demetor has just stepped into my life, that i don;t feel like i want to be happy ever again. although we went to the verge of breaking up for good and it seemed like he don't really bother anymore, we did not. but then why do i still wake up feeling this way with tears on my pillow?

i still have not gained back my appetite, which may be a good reason for dieting and i found comfort in the most unlikeliest of places, jason.

we did not break up, but i don't know why, i had to cry when i woke up. went back to my old habit, only deeper than ever, that i had to use more than 3 tissues to stop it.

feeling a sense of grudge too, when i heard that the person whom i was pouring my heart out to was passing around the phone when i needed someone to talk to the most. friends, they are nothing but shit and a waste of time. i should learn to just invest my time in more meaningful people whom i know will be there for me.

love,
chanel

get this: i'm a model, not a friggin pornstar

2008-10-16T12:20:00.002+08:00

i'm seriously sick of guys wanting to know me just so that they can get into my pants or under my shirt. i've had enough of it! i'm not a sex object that you guys can fantasize and try to get a touch here and a feel there you know. just so that i'm a model, does it mean i have to put up with this??

get this: i'm a model, not a friggin pornstar.

much as i like the feeling of being accepted, i don't need you guys telling me that my pictures makes you hard or that you can't stop thinking of me. i may be all that, but i'm no slut.

*end of rant*

school is getting really boring. just watched a video by Randy Pausch and i can say that he is a really good speaker. too bad he has to pass away so young. really inspired by his last lecture, titled 'the last lecture'. it talks more on how he tries to achieve all his childhood dreams and he makes things sound so achievable. he is like all of us, having had alot of setbacks in his life, like not being able to be accepted into Brown. he's a inspiratonalist.

getting really tired these days. sick and tired(literally) of everything. as i sit here,wishing to be Rip Van Wrinkle, where he fell asleep and not wake up after 50 years, thinking maybe that's a good idea! that'swhat i should do, just sleep and not wake up, till maybe my prince come and kiss me awake. =) what a great way to wake up to. except without the bad breathe and crusty eyes i don't think i'll mind such a fairytale.

'experience is what you get when you don't get what you wanted'
randy pausch

love,
chanel

do you know what happen to the boy who got everything in the end??
he lived happily ever after...

ipod down!!

2008-10-14T09:07:00.002+08:00

oh god, ipod is permenently down! i went online to check out their support system and nothing seems to work! haiz.

although he is back, somehow things seems really strained between us. he seems to have changed a lil. he'll be going into army soon and later going on to further his studies overseas. and yet, he still seemed confident that we will be able to get through all of it. despite it, the future of us still seems really bleak.

i love him, alot. but i'm really scared to face the future.

love,
chanel

sick sick sick

2008-10-08T09:00:00.002+08:00

sorry of being so stagnant these few days. been really sick that i even missed my test!

updates:
-mr horny's back at last!
-phone went berserk on me.(anyone to lend me a phone?)
-became damn sick for the past few days and started to puke blood
-still damn sick but still going strong!
-mr horny was out of the sudden really really nice as he fetched me to and fro from school

on the way to school today, a guy boarded the bus who looks terribly like mr horny, when he was younger. terribly tanned and thin, with almost the same bushy brows and 'out-of-bed' hair! scary.........

signing off!

love
chanel

10th & 11th day

2008-10-01T20:56:00.007+08:00

10th day

met up with shu fang to get her RX-7 'toy car', one which she will have to fix herself. but somehow, she managed to get yan ming to do it for her. she found out that kaman(her bf) had gone to buy groceries with that ribena gal and got really pissed, which somehow, led me to feel really insecure. god knows what mr horny is doing over in china.

aww man, i just wish he will come back asap.

11th day

2 more days and he'll be back!! can't wait!!!

met up with kel to chat and catch up. its been so long man. we could'nt stop talking~! its so good to chat up with old friends, it seems like she has known me forever and its just so easy to talk to someone you know really well.

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl, don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way, you're never gonna shake me

Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

'always be my baby' by david cook/mariah carey.
reminds me of him and i love him so much for that. <3>

discussions discussions discussions. how do i get to the airport?? go to work and then wait for mr horny's mum to fetch me there? meet up with shu fang and wait for kaman's parents to get us there? meet up with shu fang and get yan ming to fetch us there? OR meet up with shu fang and cab there??
2 MORE DAYS till he is back!!!
and what's more?

MY PP GOT ACCEPTED AT LAST~~!!! *pops champaign*

love
chanel

8th day

2008-09-29T12:34:00.002+08:00

met up with lionel to go to church together. he and vera has alot of issues to settle man and that girl is just drifting her life away, irregardless of anyone around her. i feel really sad for him as he has so much to offer and yet get treated by her this way.

went home after lunch for a nap before meeting mum for dinner. had one of the worst dreams man. one word: self cannibalism. dreamt that i was working in a really big office and was talking to colleagues when a video poped up on one of the computer screens showing a girl forced to eat herself up!! one of my colleague got berserk and apparently tried to get a coloured contact lense out of the webcam, which got stuck there. i tried to close the window but yet it just kept popping up again and again! then everything went dark and one of my colleagues is dead and the berserk girl(who is still kinda hysterical) was threatening to kill anyone who dares to seek help and tells us why this happen. it appears that she was peeping into the murder and that girl(who was forced to eat herself) saw her and came back to her as a spirit. wanting her case to be made known. it was also that she was wearing that coloured contact when she saw and lost it a few days later.

went for dinner with mum with her keep throwing unneccessary comments at me. met angeline, a very talkative friend i have't seen in a while and ended up chatting alot with her. from gossips of other beauty consultants to flavoured condoms.

when mr horny called at night, it seems like he has nothing much to talk to me about, which kinds of worries me. i don't want us to be a couple who has been together for too long that we have nothing much to say to each other anymore, more of like tired of each other's company. i thought that distance makes the heart grow fonder, but this clearly is not the case.

9th day

partly wish that i went to school, then i do not have to face all the complains about me that my stupid stepmum will have to say. like i do not have anything else to bother about. i seriously cannot stand her naggings and her wrongful accusations...

i want to get away.

love.
chanel

5th & 6th day

2008-09-26T12:01:00.004+08:00

5th day

woots~went for snorkelling!.

much to the astonishment of alot of school mates, we had snorkelling lessons during school hours! lucky us, the sun was up and hot, so its time to get tanned and get some water action. kinda weird breathing through the snorkel at first and kinda got choked while diving a few times due to the fact that i forgot i cannot breathe as per norm.

met fel after school for Mos burger and talked about almost everything! i haven't seen her for aeons~ misses..

met shu fang and joanna after meeting fel in tampines to accompany her for dinner and some talking. although was on the verge of breaking due to fatigueness, we still managed to have alot of fun. eddie and shu yun came later to join us and we had fun making fun of him.

went home only to find out that my PP report has gotten rejected AGAIN~~!! how many times must that bitch reject it??? she pinpoints on every teeny weeny bit of detail, which includes that date on the cover page, which i did not know what date to put as she has F**KING HELL rejected so many times!!!

mr horny called while i was in the midst of mental distress and was not being of much help. although i just wanted to talk to him on the phone, i cannot stand him always telling me that he's gonna hang up after like 10 mins! i know that i should not expect from him so much, but at least can't he even give me a treat after not communicating for one whole day?

totally broke down when he just hung up on me. first my PP and now this. totally at a lost. this should be the first time in a long time that i cried myself to sleep. maybe i should'nt expect so much whether he calls or not, not when it can affect me so much.

6th day

effing angry with eddie and shu yun. although we have already agreed to meet at 7.30am as eddie is fetching us to school, they actually last minute decide to do otherwise just because of the rain! and me? should i go to school and be late or don't go at all? lucky that my dad came back from fetching my sister to school or i swear i'll never forgive them. hate people who goes back on their word. especially at times like this.

had rock climbing lesson, was to learn about all the equipments and blah blah blah~

so many people i know are getting hitched!!

went for Rex's and Valerie's wedding dinner and i have to admit. i was smitten by the decorations! black and roses was the theme, with every table litted up by candles, surrounded by roses. aww man, i wanna get married!!! mr chia kept making fun of me by saying that i must finish the second round of food as i'm still growing and that i must take down notes for my own wedding. bah~! the weding dress was gorgeous man...... totally smitten. wil upload photos once i get it.

effing PP rejected for rework YET AGAIN!! i effing hell hate her!! and i think she hates me too. i've even asked Daniel ang (module chair for cultural) and he says that overall my content is alright!! alright and yet she does'nt approve?!?!?!?! bitch Bitch BITCH @#$%^&*(^%$#@#$%^&*()_)(^%$#@#$%^&*&^%$#@#$%^&*(*&^%$#$%^&*(^&*(!!! hope she burns in hell for causing me so much mental distress!! even fel said that she was way too sarcastic! URGHH!!! i hate her!

7th day

had to stay home to REWORK my EFFING PP at the expense of going out with kel. did i mention how much i hate my advisor??

meeting shu fang later to chill, that is if she gets around calling me.

one more week and mr horny will be back.

love,

chanel

4th day

2008-09-23T22:06:00.002+08:00

10 more days and he'll be back!

he has just called (i love it when he calls these days) and told me that they are expecting typhoons over in Hainan!! omg........ please don't let anything happen to him.

daddy god,

please protect him from harm and all adversaries. i trust him in your hands daddy for your hands are big enough and that you who are the maker of the seas and sky will not let anything come against him. bring him under your wings and let him live in the shelter of your wing. last of all, let him come to know you and learn to love you like i do.

love,
chanel

you are my hiding place and shield; i hope in your word.
Psalm 119:114

3rd day

2008-09-22T08:30:00.005+08:00

although last night me, Yan ming and shu fang was conferencing for the longest time for trying to straighten out my insecurities and making me laugh while crying, i still can't help waking up shaken from the dream i had.

*i was at the airport waiting to fetch him and saw him coming out. and although he still came over to hug me and stuff, i noticed him looking over to her while huggin me,( strange thing about dreams is that you get the 'camera' view of everything, just like on tv!) like they have something going on between them.*

know i should trust him, i'm really working hard on that. but those very same questions keep probing me.

heard some news about the KPE. 12KM long and 16 ERP gantries. Isn’t that 1 gantry every 800m??

ok, this is scary. mr horny just called (from china!!) and told me not to worry so much about him and that he knows about the talk i had last night with shu fang and yan ming!! i think shu fang told her bf which in turn told mr horny. how great. now our bfs are gossiping behind our backs. what is the world coming to??

shu fang just told me that Kaman had gone to hospital and so being the worriesome me, i called mr horny and he said that Kaman was down from overexhaustion. apparently, he did not eat nor drink and even did push ups. talk about acting tough. now poor shu fang is so effing worried for him.

oh god i miss him. mr horny i mean.

love,

chanel

note to self:
-get PP done!!
-get guess bag(s)
-chanel gold lip gloss
-vintage bag at bugis
-borrow $$ from dad

2nd day

2008-09-21T22:00:00.004+08:00

just finished watching 'message in a bottle', and although they were not really following the storyline, their tear-jerking ending was satisfying.

woke up from a very weird dream, and while i was bathing, getting ready for church, a thought struck me and has been on my mind ever since. its something that Yan ming mentioned in the car to me while on the way to Bugis yesterday and yet, no one, no one who knows about it is willing to talk to me about it. although i feel the need to scream and shout, i can't. much as i want to know more about the matter, i know it will only jeopardise whatever is precious to me now. but yet, i got this bugging me the whole day.

i don't want to be the last to know. and yet, i'm not sure if i want to know the truth.

love,
chanel

15 freaking days~~!!!

2008-09-20T23:27:00.004+08:00

for those of you who do not want to bother reading about my rants as a spinster and my whining about how much i miss my boyfriend, you guys can just scram off for 15 days coz..........

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND!!!!

i've decided to write a 15 days journal of a typical spinster's life. yes, no procrastination.
.......................................................................

mr horny left this morning. was kinda upset that he would'nt spend his last few moments with me but with his friends, like as if he won't be seeing them and only them for the next 1/2 month. HUMPH! tried my bestest not to break down in front of him and was getting quite proud of myself. manage to hold out till Yan ming hurried me to leave. was getting a bit more settled when Yan ming send me to Bugis before he had to say the whole I-CAN-SEE-YOU'RE-PUTTING-UP-A-STRONG-FRONT thing to me. man........ i tell you, something seems to wrench inside me that my tears started welling up again.

went to Bugis to meet cuzzie Vera for shopping. needed to get Fel's prezzie as today's her b'day!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FERLY.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

searched from bugis to suntec city before deciding to buy her a BRA. met Lion whilst having lunch at Soup Spoon and it was kinda weird as Lion and Vera are breaking up and there i am, like some light bulb. so he tagged along while we shopped, at least they got their happily ever after. at least for now.

i seriously can't be bothered to pose.

DECLARATION: LION'S GETTING ME A GUESS BAG THIS X'MAS!!

hahaa. now you can't get away with not buying me that bag~~ wahahahaha. i'm evil.

my mum is so cute!! as she could not get me on the phone, she naturally called mr horny, and this was what she said to me.

mum: min where's shaun?
me : he's in Hainan lor
mum: oh! he's in china?? no wonder just now i call him to find you and he said he's in China and i thought he's in Chinatown.

hahahaahhahahaaaaaaa. laughed till my tights almost came off.

Lion was super nice by treating me for treating me to dinner at Kenny Roger's Roasters, as a thank you for giving him a chance to meet vera after 3 whole months. i swear if i do not see NEE NEE NG for 3 whole months, i woul have died man. god know's if i can even survive this 2 weeks!

Lion's family is like super cool! dad's working in the AVA and driving a Lambourghini and mum's a weapon designer. friggin cool man i tell ya.

WHEE~~~~ mr horny just called!! *twirls around the room* he says he misses me and that i gotta behave myself. awww... anyway he's gonna get a calling card from there so that he can call me more often! can he get any sweeter?? and did i mention I MISS MY BOYFRIEND????? (i know lion and vera is sick and tired of me saying this, just as much as mr horny is sick of me asking him not to go hainan.)

woke up with the feeling that another friggin' stye is growing on my upper eyelid. and lo and behold! the stupid MF just won't let me outta it's sight.

gotta go sleep soon. i miss him so much.

note to self:
stop thinking of him so much to the extend of spacing out!
get gold Chanel lip gloss
get bag for school!
start reworking on PP

love,

chanel

top 10 musicals to fall in love with!

2008-09-15T12:23:00.005+08:00

i've just watch Mammia mia! and you should all do too!! almost everyone in the cinema knew the lyrics to the songs by ABBA that i was almost sure everyone was going to stand to sing and dance! ( which sadly did not happen)

lovin's musicals soooo much that i'm going to blog my top 10 favourite musicals of all time!

how can you not love The Phantom Of The Opera?? i'm willing to spend hundreds just to watch it! the possesiveness of the phantom just makes him drop dead sexy. and who can resist the songs???

'Diamonds are a girl's best friend!' show girls and money for sex. i just love old london where caberet girls are the stars of the city. the addition of forbidden love of the social hierarchy makes this musical one of my all time favourites!

i know this is a very old musicals but how can one just not love the classics? and besides, i grew up watching and singing to 'getting to know you', 'i am 16 going on 17' and 'the hills are alive... with the sound of music..' and eating macaroni.

mama mia, here i go again, my my, how can i resist you?
so what if you hate musicals? Pierce brosnan will give you 2 reasons just to watch it.
1) he's smokin' hot
2) his singing is hilarious.
mr horny kept commenting that he sings like a russian.

i'm so going to get the OST.

darkest musical ever!! johnny depp was so good that i forgotten he had turned from drunk swaggering pirate to callous cold-blooded barber. love the unexpected twist in the end that it reminds me of the compositions i used to write back in secondary school.

Good morning Baltimore~~!! this movie is colourful enough teaming up with catching tunes and john trovolta, who can get enough of this??

another musical i grew up with. shows the egoistic side of the typical man and that summer love can also mean everlasting.

very sad and yet great musical. another classic whose title many singaporeans do not know how to pronounce, meaning 'the miserable people/ poor people', portrays the great love of a father who comes in the form of an ex-convict still on the run but doing good deeds for the greater part of his life due to the compassion a man showed him. sadly, the movie hardly features any music from the original musical.

Disney movies get me high!!! although zac and vanessa looks cute together, i still love ashley tisdale and her bimbotic-ness. remember to catch High School Musical 3!!

last but not least, Dream girls. although it was to me another typical-dream-come-true-by-sleeping-with-producer movie, it was good that it shows that although you have the talent, it does not mean you will make it into showbiz girl. not even if you sleep with the producer and bore him a daughter.

love,

chanel

ps: mr horny's going Hainan!! please sign the 'DON'T GO HAINAN' petition.

pss: remember to ask mr horny to get Malibu of he really goes to Hainan

psss: get mama mia OST

its been so long....

2008-09-04T13:00:00.010+08:00

ok, i know i have procrastinated and alot of blogders have been complaining. but time constraint has been my constant companion these few days especially with me fretting over my Professional Profiling and a timepiece that mr horny calls 'my obsession'. but noooo mr horny. you are the obsession. =)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY. 18.08.08

oh yes. it has been a very unexpected but meaningful year with my baby. alot has happened and yet mr horny has been stubbornly loyal. not like its a bad thing either. just want to thank him for keeping to his word about not letting go and I LOVE YOU!!!

went for dinner at a place called Jerry's where to sell steaks that are quite palatably pleasing. got a pleaseant surprise when we went home as it was pouring like mad that night.

yeaps. 500 candles!!

and with some help from mr horny's mum and brother with the lighting up of candles..

actually mr horny and me did most of the lighting and the whol room was like 500 degrees!! we were both perspiring like mad.

awww.... how sweet. at last mr horny has got hos very own shirt.

CAM-WHORING................

don't mr horny look really gay in this pic??
mr horny really thinks that i have a fetish for eeyores...

I lurrrve this photo!!!

~AARON~
my cousin from wales has come and gone. for two whole months i only managed to take one measly photo with him. *sighs with regrets*

aww man... i miss him sooo much!!! i miss the times when we go to Chinatown together and he keep complaining about how everyone(literally) was staring at me and makes him want to beat those old man up for staring so hard.

i miss the time when we went all the way to hilton hotel just to try their cheesecake.

i miss the time when we went into a jewellry store just to make fun of the salesmen by saying we are looking for an engagement ring and that money is not a problem.

urrrgh~~i just miss him.

proof that mr horny morphs.......

RANDOM PICS...

yeaps. we are pastors in the making..

poor me, mr horny does not wanna take photos with me.

mr horny teaching the correct way of standing when preparing to swing a club.
mr horny teaching the inapropriate way of swinging a club.

mr horny is one tough teacher, especially when i come to golf. "countrol the club!! don't let the club control you!!" "eyes on the ball!!!" are some scoldings that still remains deeply etched in me mind.

alright,that's all for now.

love,

chanel

the most unlikely of proses

2008-08-16T00:37:00.007+08:00

i doubt he finds for me. it's not the very first time that he has left me to wonder the grounds of the night alone. i seek no comfort in the darkest of night , or even in the occasional jeer of couples who look deep into each other's eyes, full of lovesick passion. do they not know that it will not last? like the beauty of the world, love for one, does not last. silently i cried into the night, and there he was, the most unlikely of man, nothing of comfort he brings, and drunk into the night he may seem. and yet, he said to me in the most unsual manner yet. as i tread lightly, trying to block out the sounds of my footsteps, of the very beating of my heart, of the thoughts that says the very things i dread. how can i expect him to seek for me and to console when i do not know where i am myself.

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for all your viewing pleasure

as a few of you might know that i recently have gotten a swollen eye, which is also known as a stye which grew on the inside of my eyelid and got forced to mount alvernia hospital ( the very hospital which i was born in). got stabbed in the eye by the doctor which hurt like hell! 100 times more painful than stitches anytime.

i miss her like mad.

love ,

chanel

the blackness in me

2008-08-07T17:13:00.003+08:00

i guess i've figured out just why do people like to walk in the rain when they're down and out. not because that the weather suits them, or that the heavens are crying for them. but because the coldness of each drop numbs an aching heart and that one can cry to their heart's content and not be judged be the public's eye

the devil in me has started to call forth. its urging me to do just the things that i have vowed never to do again. foolish, yes, but it comes with great satisfaction, and yet hurt the very being it dwells within.

screwed

2008-08-03T21:43:00.003+08:00

MY LIFE IS TOTALLY SCREWED!

yes, and i only have mr horny to blame. now that my face is scarred, he will of course have to take on full responsibilty, that is, if nobody else in the world wants me, he is obligated to.

suffering from full blown PMS, and yes, I WILL GET VERY ANGRY IF YOU STEAL MY DINNER OR PUT TOO MUCH PARMESAN CHEESE IN MY PASTA. i am certifiablly crazy when i'm having PMS( pre-present-post) thank you very much.

i'm sorry if i blew my top at you just because you did the above mentioned, but i thought you always did you homework in counting down the days?

why i do not want to spend your money on food whatsoever? firstly, its your hard earned money. secondly, it might be your parent's money and they are no obligated to make sure i'm stuffed. thirdly, i do not want to be seen as some gold digger which i already am by some bitches in school.

baby( refering to mr horny), hope you understand and learn to recognise the all so familiar signs of PMS.

i have a hundred and one ramblings that i can go on forever, but i shall stop.

signing out

love

chanel

JADED

2008-07-30T15:25:00.003+08:00

feeling f**king jaded.

sore throat killing me with fever as the accomplice.

last taken 38.4 degrees.

can't believe i even skipped dinner just to sleep and till now i'm still tired

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more pictures of my baby gurl~~!!

waiting for me to feed her some kenny roger's chicken.

my baby before her hair cut.

love

chanel

Unpublished Pablo Neruda poem

2008-07-25T14:30:00.003+08:00

and to think i can be lost in something as subtle and passionate as this.

Tonight I Write

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."

The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like this, I held her in my arms.I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her.How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.

To hear the immense night, more immense without her.And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.The night is full of stars and she is not with me.

That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.My soul is lost without her.

As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.My heart searches for her and she is not with me.

The same night that whitens the same trees.We, we who were, we are the same no longer.

I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.

Someone else's. She will be someone else's. As she oncebelonged to my kisses.Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.Love is so short and oblivion so long.

Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,my soul is lost without her.

Although this may be the last pain she causes me,and this may be the last poem I write for her

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watching The L word: this show will soon turn me into a lesbian.

signing off,

chanel

2008-07-25T11:28:00.000+08:00

DEPRESSION....

nothing can explain how i'm feeling now.

somebody save me.

2008-07-22T15:41:00.002+08:00

RANDOM THOUGHTS

my all-time favourite doggy is BACK~!

mr horny's new rug.

pot luck in class E55A!

i love these crazy bunches of people.

NO PHOTOS PLEASE......
syima was caught in the act.

went to watch The Dark Night with mr horny during the UOB movie event. well, it was afterall an ok movie, not as mind blowing as i thought, and the movie was waaaaay too long that i even realised i was watching a movie! (which is not a good thing as you are suppose to be 'one' with the movie while watching it to be fully enthralled) and what's worse, i sat till my ass hurts.

i have to admit that the Joker is one cool dude and he pretending to be a red head nurse... it sure knocked my zonkers off man!! and blowing up that hospital, cooool.

and and and Christin Bale!! aww man, he's HAWT! seriously, that bod sizzles. but i got kinda irritating when he talks in the 'i-think-its-macho' voice when all he sounded was like he was having a bad sore throat.

but you know what intimidated me most??

i'm sitting in the midst of hundreds of debtors.

yes~!! and they are BIG debtors who owes the bank a hell lot of money, thus, the bank having this event to thank them for borrowing so much from them. and no, i'm not a debtor.

i think that's that for now.

toodles.

signing off,
chanel

afterpost rantings:

i don't understand why the hell am i so concerned for. its your money.

you do what's ethical to you. i have no comments, since it only seems to make matters worse.

it does not mean that just because they gave us something means they can make us go round in circles. twisting their words here and there is only a waste of time. do what's right to you, i don't want to have any say in this anymore since all you think of me is that i am being unreasonable.

i seriously don't understand. i don't.

i have enough of this shit and its up to you to decide. period.

doggy's day out at the beach~

2008-07-16T12:11:00.007+08:00

its a day out at the beach for ah fat with lotsa sand, sea and shivers ~!

as you can see from the pictures, its a TINS(there is no sun) day, which is still fine ( even if my tan was imperceptible as there was my 2 beloveds..

ah fat spending a few moments reminiscing about god know's what.

trying to take a picture of my reflection my guess bag, failling terribly though.
ah fat aka sandy

caught him bio-ing at other char bo.caught her bio-ing at other hunks (husky and retrievers).

mr horny was too bored and started a mission to bury ah fat

after 1/2hr..........

still not giving up......

at last....

lazy ah fat slept all the way on the ride home..

love,

chanel

i lurrve ah fat!!

2008-07-14T10:37:00.002+08:00

I LURRVE MY BABY GURL <3 <3

name: ah fat aka aquarius aka sandy (TBA)
age: 5 mths
gender: female
description: cuteness beyond depiction.

she's my weakness. all thanks to mr horny. i love you too la.

love,

chanel

ITE OR NOT? SICK AND TIRED

2008-07-08T14:09:00.008+08:00

ITE OR NOT? SICK AND TIRED

stupid fever,cramps and sore throat. can things get any worse? apparently yes.

school seems even suckier than usual, making a bad presentation of myself despite my efforts to maintain my facade. friends around me seem to know what's going on in my private life and it sorts of scares me.

loadsa thanks to my chrissy gurl. thanks for forcing me to the doctor's and even paying it for me. gurls out there~ this gentlemen's still available!

see chrissy, i care about your welfare, and there you are saying that i bo chup. help you advertise to get your potential girlfriend. oh bless my kind soul. hahas.

a change in blogskin~ and i even did it within 1/2hr. can i get any smarter?

current addiction: ghost whisperer

this tv show has apparently led me into a state of paranoia.

signing off,

love

chanel

ps: thanks fel, for all that you've said, but somehow you made me think like there's more than meets the eye. i'm seriously uncertain of my decisions and of course will bear your words in mind =) loves

I'M SORRY

2008-07-04T23:28:00.002+08:00

TEARDROPS

on the way home, a thousand thoughts went through my mind, not knowing why he was speeding. was it because of his friend? was it because he was angry? was it because he wanted he wanted to get rid of me? probably.was it because he wanted me to get home asap to rest? i doubt.

i'm sorry that i came out of the house late
i'm sorry that i had to wait three buses before getting on
i'm sorry that a guy came on the bus before the stop i'm alighting to ask for questions
i'm sorry that i had to run all the way from that very stop before spraining my god damn ankle
i'm sorry that i made you wait so long
i'm sorry that i was borned anemia
i'm sorry that i made you drive all the way to yishun dam just to turn back to tampines
i'm sorry that i made you worry
i'm sorry that i made you angry

i'm sorry. i really am.

random thoughts

2008-07-04T10:03:00.009+08:00

RANDOM THOUGHTS

i can corroborate that i DO have alot of things in mind to blog about YESTERDAY, but due to my averse procrastination, something which i feel i am born with, i'm dry. i am able to make mental notes to myself on what to blog on, but when it come to facing my screen and the keyboard, i can't seem to remember shit.

this was taken a few weeks back i guess, when mr.horny caught a bunny using those 'rip-you-off-trick-machines' at the arcade. i think he spent around 20 buck on it?

me and my sis, training her into a cam-whore

a random maserati lool-alike jag. blame the photographer(mr horny) for such a low quality image with the it looking a little slighted.

speaking of jag, mr horny's mum luurrrrvvess these cars, qoute: 'my mum loves to drive animals'. when i asked about why is it that she don't drive japanese cars, qoute:'then the banker will come knocking on our door' . however, its saddening that even for the well-offed, they are restricted to driving only 'designer' cars, which in other words, NO JAPANESE CARS. not even rich fart cars like the 2008 Nissan Skyline GT-R.

which is sad, as it seems that people are caught in a vicious cycle. the poor are restricted due to finances while the rich are restricted due to reputation.

lurvin' GOSIP GIRLS TO THE MAX~~!! serena van der woodson is hot Hot HOT! just finish the last episode last week, impatiently waiting for the 2nd season!

you should watch it~! and this is coming from a fan of romance and musical films. visually stunning and relentlessly entertaining, IT IS THE MAX~ downside, with such a hot chic, why is here only one kissing scene???

*SPOILER*

to mr horny: WHY MUST ANGELINA JOLIE DIE???

ok, he's going to kill me.

signing off,

love,

chanel

back to school and loadsa procrastination

2008-06-16T13:45:00.003+08:00

BACK TO SCHOOL AND LOADSA PROCRASTINATION

2 weeks has passed just like that and seriously, i could not have procrastinated more. a list of things that i have resolved to do this holiday and not done:

-get a proper bag for school
-converse shoes
-go ice-skating
-go tanning
-blog??
-go overseas
-finish 'Gossip Girl'
-samsung U600
-watch 'SEX AND THE CITY'
-don't watch 'KUNGFU PANDA'

so, a whole two weeks and all i have accomplished so far is.......

-returned sleep debt
-ate durians.. lots of it
-clubbing
-got my crazy pink Ettusais luggage
-watched kungfu panda
-removed Mr horny's black heads

why oh why did i succumb to stupid LE-O-NARD to spend $$$ to watch a stupid cartoon which do not need much cinematic experience in a cinema?????

a picture mr horny will kill me for putting up. relaxing while waiting for his black heads to be removed.

me mr horny and leonard at Phuture

bored out..... and mr horny's not replying me on MSN

loves

chanel

2008-05-30T15:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPINESS

How to make a woman happy?It seems not so difficult! You should only be:
1) Father
2) Comrade
3) Lover
4) Brother
5) Friend
6) Owner
7) Teacher
8) Cook
9) Roofer
10) Sanitary engineer
11) Mechanic
12) Decorator
13) Stylist
14) Sexopatologist
15) Gynaecologist
16) Psychologist
17) Psychiatrist
18) Therapist
19) Bold
20) Organizer
21) Good Father
22) Cleanly
23) Friendly
27) Careful
28) Gallant
29) Intelligent
30) Educated
31) with a sense of humor
32) Inventive
33) sporty
34) Strong
35) Understandable
36) Acquiescent
37) Tolerant
38) Lenient
39) Cautious
40) Soft
41) Relaxed
42) Ambitious
43) Decided
44) Reliable
45) Infatuated
46) Polite
47) Very Good Father
48) .....etc.not forgetting this:
49) often to say compliments
50) love to engage in shopping
51) no scandals and not to look for problems
52) to be rich
53) do not irritate her
54) do not look at other girls

At the same time, you must:
55) be attentive to her
56) not be jealous
57) get along with her mother
58) find time for her,.. leaving the space for her, worrying about her...

VERY IMPORTANT:
59) Do! Not to forget the dates of:
Birthday
First rendezvous
Betrothal
Wedding
Unfortunately, even strictly observing all the rules, her happiness ... is not guaranteed,because she can stifle with perfectness of her partner and escape with the first one comes across:
rabble-alcoholic-philanderer

How to make a man happy?
It seems unrealizable:
1) to sleep with him
2) to leave him alone

back to the beginning

2008-05-30T09:00:00.003+08:00

am i going round in circles?? that is what i myself want to find out.

is fairytales just a wishful thinking of mine? i should know by now that is it not all that easy and i don't see why is everyone trying so hard to achieve 'fairytale' endings. and yet, i see myself as one of them, working for god knows what.

people all around is telling me give up on this futile pursuit, by why is it i still have this nagging feeling inside me?

i don't want to keep going in circles, working so hard and just come to realise in the end that whatever i wanted is not meant to be. i don't want to go through whatever has happened again.

i'm lost.

daddy God, you are my beacon of light in life, and in you i find my strength, guide me in your ways.

love,
chanel

class of E55A. lurve this class

2008-05-26T14:12:00.003+08:00

I LURRRB THIS CLASS

the cam-whorers that God has bestowed unto me to let me know that changing classes is not all that bad.

God, i can't wait for our 'vacation' man~~!!

my besties in the class: me- mean gene Lynette- stupidity genes jasmin-deaf gene and niza- perfectly fine.

i know i sat in a very uncouth manner. shuddup.

can we please get on with our 'vacation'?? cam-whoring madness~~

loves,

chanel

baby, i'm yours..

ps: to fel- who says i can only get along with guys???

FOOLISHBABYISHINFANTILEJUVENILE

2008-05-23T10:31:00.005+08:00

FOOLISHBABYISHINFANTILEJUVENILE

i know i should not let such a small matter get me down, but why is it always, ALWAYS that i'm lost to my surroundings?? i have no idea what got me here and how it got me in the first place, and besides, i don't think i did anything to make him say those senza things.

KO ZA VOICE DA MA??? FUNGKULO. MINKIA. URRRGHHH...

why did i even let such a cunt ruin my day?? no. wait, why does such a cunt EVEN EXIST(strangely, a small voice is telling me that such exists to irritate me)?? seriously, he said i was staring, but if he was not staring at me, how would he know i was staring(with the fact in mind that he was not the one i was looking at)?? so am i suppose to be sewing vulgarities at him too??

i let the matter rest not because i'm a pushover, its just that i don't see the point in stooping down to your level and making a fool of myself in public. what has happened in the past, its in the past. i did not pursue, and i don't care if you do ok, besides, whatever you do, you are just showing how juvenile you are.

what's worse: i do not understand what is your problem with me and i don't see how i am hardly related to you, judging on the fact that i have NEVER spoke to you once.

don't like my criticisms? then why are you even here in the first place?? if you were'nt looking for criticisms, then why don't you just click on the little red box at the top right hand corner of you screen. i say what like in my blog and i do not have to subdue to whether you like it or not.

love,

chanel

ps: thanks NEE NEE for your herbal tea, although it burnt not only my tongue but also somewhere else on my body. but its still much appreciated yea?

psps: nee nee and mr horny is the same person.

boring boring boring

2008-05-20T12:04:00.003+08:00

LESS THAN GLAMOUROUS

today's problem was about this small boy in India, gifted marathoner, who ran 60km in 6 and a half hours exploited by his coach. and did i mention he's only 3years old? leading on to another child maths genius in China who went to Oxford at the age of 9 and going for his Masters soon on FULL SCHOLARSHIP.

what's wrong with the world these days?? the young seem to be outshining the adults( the government of myanmar), freak winds and earthquakes. think the world is coming to an end, and i mean it not in a pessimistic point of view. i await for that day my saviour comes forth.

can my life get anymore boring?? what happened to all the going home in the wee hours of the morning (or not going home at all)rounding outside or late night partying OR late night shopping??

it somehow feels like amidst my hustle and bustle lifestyle, i've become a relatively boring person. too much work and striving for As in class is making me more or less tired and NOT fun.

this notion fell upon me when jeremy asked how did i spend my LONG( making sure to stress that word) weekend. my answer: working. talk about typical.

i seriously must do something about it. falling sick... mucus in my nose seems to be working overtime, giddiness and sleepiness comes after. i'm starting to feel a tad of reluctancy to go work later.

i haven't even start on gymnming despite my resolution(to myself) to start in may.

i need to go on a holiday badly...

love,

chanel.

ps: the last sentence was meant for class E55A. when are we going LANGKAWI?? desperately yearning for lush beaches, beautiful sunset, good company and a cup of PINA COLADA.

too many controversies, too little time

2008-05-07T10:21:00.005+08:00

TOO MANY CONTROVERSIES, TOO LITTLE TIME

i admit, i have been procrastinating ALOT that i almost forgot that i had a blog to update. but still, there's alot of going-ons in my life. striving for As in class is starting to become a chore in class as laziness starts to take over.

anyway, i have no idea what is wrong with Subaru drivers, they either have their ego up their ass or they are seriously childish to think that Subaru is a hot car. WHICH IS NOT. so what if my dad used to drive one?? it was totally pragmatic of him to sell it.

why am i dishing on subaru?? well, the car definitely has no problems with me, its their drivers, especially those driving rexes who are too anal for their own good.

this is what happened one night. mr horny was sending me home on the expressway when this rex turned up from no where and suddenly slowed down, seemingly waiting for us to catch up. and when we do, the STUPID REX DRIVER suddenly accelerated, showing odd his engine and all those other crap. that's not all, just before he(SRD) exited the expressway, he showed a thumbs down to us. C.H.I.L.D.I.S.H is all i can say. you just wait and see SRD......

as if that is not enough, just as i was bitching this to fel, she told me she had similar experience with an SRD too! but it was worse, this SRD was tailgating cyril's EX and high beaming him all the way. when cyril slowed down, the SRD pointed middle at him and demanded to get down and fight, which was C.H.I.L.D.I.S.H as he was looking at cyril's ass all the way although he's a SRD.

i don't mean to be a stereotype but this was what those SRD showed me, they want to be childish.

sidetracking, not to say that i'm a country bumpkin or anything, but since when has the prices of movie tickets rocketed to the uber steep price of $10??

i can get 3 packs of chicken rice with that~!! *faints*

$10 per person for a frigging ticket is super rip off i tell you. lets analyse. a cinema has an average of 206 seats per show and lets say for a new blockbuster, the whole cinema is filled, the cinema would have earned $2,060 per film. if lets say that particular cinema is filming that blockbuster 4 times in a day,it'll be $8240 in a day! and that's only one cinema... not counting the amount of cinema a cineplex contains. total rip off ma.....

and its as if the hike in GST is doing us any good .

anyway, something that made my jaws drop, excerpt from perez hilton:

Heidi Klum reveals that her hubby, Seal, proposed to her in an igloo he had built up in the Canadian Rockies just for the occasion.

Seal had a helicopter whisk the two of them up the mountain range to the pimped out igloo — complete with bed, rose petals, food, champagne…the works.

Any of you ladies have a better story?

Guys about to propose — think about stepping up your game.

loves,

chanel

ps: please don't take friendship for granted or risk losing them. keep to your word is all i'm asking.

psps: i do not care whatever shit rumours you have spread about me, all i can say is that i have done nothing of whatever you have said. believe me or not

i'm a true blue singaporean

2008-04-30T14:01:00.003+08:00

I'M A TRUE BLUE SINGAPOREAN

once and for all, to all those who thinks that i'm a thai or chinese, I AM NOT~~!

i've had enough of people asking me about my nationality, and i had to stand with this shit not only at work but even in school! which part of me does not look like a singaporean?? seriously man, not only caucasians but even fellow singaporeans mistaken me. disgusted. maybe i should start acting more like a typical singaporean from now on and use less cheem words from now on. well, that's just a thought

digressing: HATE CONDESCENDING PEOPLE. DON'T YOU DARE PATRONIZE ME I TELL YOU OR I'LL GIVE YOU HELL YOU'VE NEVER EXPERIENCED BEFORE. you just wait and see, we'll see who has the last laugh. smart aleck. yea, smart enough to make people hate you just for your intellectual yet meaningless points of view. too bad you've met someone like me who sadly shares the same critical judgment as you. i repeat: DO NOT MESS WITH ME.

back to the problem, do i or do i not look like a singaporean?? the impertinence of it all. i swear i'll bite the head off the next person who says i do not look local(lest the said person has got oily hair, dandruff or head lices.)

RAWRR.......

signing off,

love,

chanel

hateclementchew.com

2008-04-15T10:09:00.004+08:00

DISLIKE BUT CERTAINLY NOT HATING

this might be quite a long winded entry with no photos, so you might want to leave if you're expecting some light hearted bimbotic entry.

note: THAT DOES NOT MAKE ME A BIMBO.

alot of things has happen this few days that makes me reflect on life alot more than usual. well, actually, its not alot of things la, just one, but its more than enough yea??

to anna: i'm sorry about what happen to you and listening whatever you have gone through is like listening to myself talking all over again what happened 9 months ago.

i agree that i have gotten over him, all thanks for mr horny and of course all my friends, especially fel, who's been there for my every whim and fancy, advising and accompanying me just so that i'll stop crying. and mr horny, well, he is also one of the main reason and i'm really grateful for him being around trying his best to make me laugh my head off EVERY SINGLE TIME I MEET HIM. without them, i don't think i would have forgotten about him so easily.

anyway, i've certainly got someone to scold in mind, and although he is someone i know, i still have to say this. you are not as MATURE as i thought you were. beneath all your facade, you are just as inane as the rest of them. if you want to initiate a break up, please make a clean break of things, don't go around leaving messages here and there. no one needs you to GIVE THEM FACE. besides, your giving of diginity DOES NOT COUNT FOR SHIT.

so what if you were badmouthed by the others, if you were as mature as you ought to be, you will NOT GIVE A DAMN. so what's up with all these spamming of tagboards i see??

URRGH~~~ and the worse thing is, i'm fixed. much as i want to complain and go on and on about the person in question, i can't with the one that i want to discuss this with for fear of hurting him. i understand his situation, it sucks to be caught in the middle.

PS to mr horny: i'm sorry ya gotta listen to me badmouth your best friend. i'll try to stop myself yea?

after soooo long

2008-04-07T01:15:00.023+08:00

I'M BACK~~~!!
missed me people??

ok ok, i apologise for the HUGE procrastination on my part BUT it was for a reason(some ass complained that there was cobwebs on my blog). poor me had to juggle two jobs, meet mr horny and meet up with friends. so as most can see, i was not online ever since the school holidays started.

schoools have started yea and i am so not used to waking up at hours when the sun is not even up yet! i prefer the life back when the sun will be my alarm clock(the sun shines in as my curtains are semi-translucent, nice but useless in the mornings) and there'll be birds chirping outside my window.

well, maybe not birds, but more like drills, but at least the sun is up when i'm awake and not wake up in wee hours of the morning.

if i were to run for president, i would make it illegal to wake up so early in the morning and working hours will only start at 9am in the morning, unless you're on night shift or something, and retail hours will be open till 11~~! woots.. more shopping time! brilliant idea yea?

anyway, i have a hell loada photos to upload and thankfully my school's server is fast today due to almost the whole school being let off today. i'll start from the earliest yea.

first up~! chinese new year.......

brothers and sisters according to age

ma and one of my closest cousin, vera

young adults of the family

isn't it obvious that my sister is in the likes of me?? she's wearing my shoes

my dad's side of the family

next up~! Valentine's day..

all these are MINE MINE MINE~~~ courtesy of mr horny

selfish mr horny piggin' out on ben and jerry's, and not sharing it with me

after lotsa complains and tantrums....
yay~~ bliss...

after 2 whole days of hard work

mr horny secretly wants to be a HAWT man in uniform..

random peektures....

i told you he's retarded...

the 1st part of my birthday celebration... the jewel box mt faber

i lurrrve my pina colada..

i'm trying to 'electrify' him

my 19th birthday kiss =)

you may all think that i'm a cam whore... but mr horny's one too!!

2nd part of the celebration... at home club clark quay

smile harder la mr horny.. why look so glum?

ermz.... that's a tad too much

thanks to all who has celebrated my birthday with me and showered me with prezzies. lurves to all~~~

ps: will be able to blog more now that school has started yea. promises...

last day at W34G, shoppin spree with fel and shaun's company dinner

2008-02-06T12:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~~!!

this post is a lil' late as i have posted photos of the last day of school and a shopping spree for chinese new year clothes with fel. it has been a pretty busy so far with chinese new year coming just round the corner, with tonight already being the reunion dinner night.

just completed with spring cleaning, tiring but fufilling, complete with a few specks of dust still stuck up my nose, causing my sinus to react.

shopped with my bro last sunday, which means skipping church, and we actually shopped fron suntec all the way to tampines mall. poor bro, despite not wanting to spend any money, ended up spending $300.

went for a job interview last monday for the position of make up consultant for a branch of shisheido: ettusais. since it was really short, me and fel had the whole day of catching up and best of all, SHOPPING. its bee so long since i actually went on a shopping spree, so its time to pamper meself yea?

went shopping yet AGAIN on tuesday with mr horny before going for his parent's company dinner at a restaurant in Yishun. weird additions like quail eggs in shark's fin, abalone with bean curd skin and tang yuan in almond soup?? it was overall good.

in the car on the way there, with mr horny's mum and his neighbour, aunty molly sitting at the back, there was some really weird flutuations in conversations topic. from grand children to the world's economy to grand children again, to buying a new car.

alright, photos of the last day of school. i can say that this class, although not as united as i'll liked it to be, it has alot of people with really fun personalities, making going to school on the whole. fun.

my last team of the semester, filled with wacky people. from left: kai xiang(gamer),fir(NPCCian),me,dihan(sri lankan) and sam(body builder with matching pipes).

the person i love to irritate the most: jerome aka meatball~~

singaporeans vs foreign talents
turning into a Ban Ban angel

learning to lurrve my cultural facilitator: Daniel Ang

the guys of my class ACTING cool.
after 16 weeks. they have finally declared their love officially to the world

the 4 girls who chabot class, making Daniel really sad

final goodbyes, until we meet again yea~~~!!!

next up: me and fel's shopping spree last monday which made our legs hurt REAL bad. cam whoring session is a must-have when we get together.

trying to do the typical 'ah lian' look in photos

imitating someone's smile, private and confidential

two busy chicks

fetish for disfiguring myself

the PL smile, secret between me and fel. so don't ask what does PL mean.

my shelter from the world
lurrrvin' my BFF
glam girls carry designer wallets and drink designer coffee.

look who's checkin' us out from above.

alrights, gotta go prepare for reunion dinner.

loves,

chanel

ps: people of W34G, please please please do not lose contact yea??

pss: fel, remember our common goal ar, THE bag~~~!!

the world in 7 pics and a break to models= anorexic

2008-01-31T14:41:00.000+08:00

STOP STEREOTYPING: MODELS ARE NOT ANOREXIC

came across some really sad pictures of girls who are anorexic/bulimic and i think these pictures can stop the stereotyping that MODELS ARE ANOREXIC. because there are those who are not, like *ahem* your's truely.

on the lighter side of things, these 7 picture shows the world~~

only in China

only in Texas
only in Mexico
only in India
only in Hawaii

only in America
only in Thailand.

cool yea??

a link for 18 and above only: http://www.thebachelorguy.com/5-summer-sex-positions-that-could-get-you-hospitalized-or-arrested.html

love,

chanel

lollipop policeman and yu sheng

2008-01-30T14:03:00.000+08:00

LOLLIPOP POLICEMAN AND YU SHENG

woots~~

met a really cute policeman yesterday on my way to work. he was in charge of checking the possesions of all people who pass through the staff entrance.
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policeman: sorry for the inconvenience caused

me: its alright, just take your time

- fumbles around my bag-

policeman: oooh!! lollipop!!
me : =)

-fumbles around laptop cover-

policeman: you may go

me: thanks!

policeman: LOLLIPOP~~!!

me: you want?? (sincerly intending to give it to him)

policeman: nahhss... *blushes*
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he actually blushed~~~ sooo cute~~~

me and my sick fetish........

anyway, my class celebrated the chinese new year with an yu sheng much thanks to our facilitator, Della!

those with the plastic gloves are the commitee to make yu sheng, and yes, that includes me

the aftermath of fun

sherm, jacky and ben
me and idiotic jacky

that's all for now.

signing off,

love,
chanel

happy birthday mr horny~~!!

2008-01-22T13:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR HORNY

this post came in a lil' late as i wanted to compile all of my nice nice photos together and actually blog on everything at one go. first up is mr horny's birthday party at his place!! the whole event was actually quite magical i would say, this was how it goes.

20th january 2008 marks the 20th birthday of mr horny and he decides to celebrate it at home with his friends and a smirky smile. besides, home is where the heart is yea?? so he got himself a cake..

called over some guy friends and was actually having alot of fun. however, they realised something, there was a lack of gorgeous girls in the scene.

so he decided to go on with the birthday ritual and decided to wish for gorgeous girls to spend his birthday with him.however, catch is, every birthday boy is only entitled to one girl. at least one gorgeous girl is better than none yea??

and so he makes his wish and blows out those wishing candles.

smirking away as he cuts his cake knowing full well that as it was his birthday, his wish will come true.
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TRUE ENOUGH!! the girl appeared in a flash of light!!

and thus, it marks the end of the story.

at the other side of the world, a superhero turned villian has decided to sow his 'seed' into all canines, hoping that they will all become mutant Canineders to infest and take over the world!!

poor Oreo has been targetted to become spidey's first victim! somebody help him!!!

is that a bird? is that a plane? NO. its a pair of giant hands and legs coming to oreo's rescue!!

*ps: the above story was entirely fictitous. anyone dumb enough to believe??

next up: ultimate photoshoot of W34G. the best kids in town.

yea, that's our cultural facilitator who's kinda cute despite being a bit *ahem* gay. *blushes*

much as i hate this pose, but a girl can have her dumb blonde/kawaii moments yea??
trying to spoil the photo.
loving our class too much that it is a tradition to hug the walls

i'm a RP ambassador!!! promoting RP is my cause.............. *lame*

the guys are certainly enjoying the view yea??
and gen seems hungry for my 'buns'

fooling around while fir is trying to teach me maths.

last: manage to uncover couple pictures taken with joxef during the unforgettable 10 hour long photoshoot.

those who are interested to view the modelling photos or intending to buy traditional yet modern chinese clothes for the upcoming chinese new year, feel free to view:

http://www.tangyuan-apparel.com/index.php

note: i don't earn money from the advert.

alright, i've gotta go back to my lessons(secretly blogging...shh..!)

love,

chanel

first day at TIGER BAR!!

2008-01-18T14:55:00.000+08:00

LIVING ON A PRAYER

working at Tiger bar is real fun!! the people there are nice, especially JASON FERNANDEZ, fun environment and the customers, NO MORE FUSSY SINGAPOREANS!! i just love working in the transit area man.

the first time i went into the transit area of the VERY new T3 and to tell you the truth, i was friggin' awe-strucked. all my favourite brands! 'burberry' ,'chanel', 'salvotore ferrangamo' and so on........ and what's more, the toilets are bigger than half of my house!! there's those basins that are shaped in a bowl, individual dressing tables(complete with chairs and side table) and even dressing rooms!!

no more having to dirty my precious hands from carry heavy bowls and scortching plates. hello to shots, cocktails and mixers. i've now found a mixer that has taken over the place of no.1 mixer and that is 'Malibu Pineapple'!! pushing vodka cranberry to 2nd. think i'm gonna get myself a bottle of that soon so that i can have it at home too. =)

stuck on the song 'living on a prayer' by Bon Jovi and i just can't stopin playing it!! URGHH~~!

omg, ben was just crapping again. now its on the peony flower( flower of china) and he kept pronouncing it as 'pee-o-ni' and he says its sounds like the name of a small penis...............whatever! *waves hand away*

just took peeektures with my dear classmates but they have yet to upload *shakes head* so poor me i've gotta wait.

suffering from writer's block...

till next time!!

saluto ciao!

love,
chanel

jealous jealous jealous jealous jealous

2008-01-16T14:30:00.000+08:00

JEALOUS JEALOUS JEALOUS ...... =(

i know i should'nt be see thatit is one of the 7 deadly sins but still???

URRGGHH~~~

sick of those lovey-dovey couples. stop showing off especially to me!! i'm 'emo' enough already.

i should be happy with what i have yea???

mr horny's b'day's coming~~~!!!

2008-01-15T14:18:00.000+08:00

ONE BUSY CHIC

yea, i am. so many things to do, too little people to do it for me. crap. i must seriously get myself an organiser (hints). as i am now *ahem* EMPLOYED, thus i am also considered busy contributing to singapore's economy.

so what's up on my agenda, i'm going to work as a bartender in Changi Airport T3's transit area, so those who wanna visit me, please kindly proceed to the ticket counter at the departure hall to purchase a ticket. afterall, its worthwhile for me yea?? *sniggers* anyway, its going to take up ALOT of time as i am in serious need of cash, thus resulting in the endless conplaints from mr. horny.

got to take time out to actually go to reina's house to chereograph a lyrical piece(was playing with the idea of adding hip hop, jazz and victorian) with her, but knowing the two of us, we'll probably end up having girl's talk and lotsa laughter.

got booked by fel to go PHUTURE-ing with her this friday. and so coincidentally, lion's b'day falls on the same day!! just got to learn to pretend to be oblivious to that day in case he comes hounding me for a present. what can i give to a guy whose dad owns a Lambourghini??? my heart?? nahz, he'll only want my cousin's. my body???? hmm, mr horny might just kill the both of us.

anyway, mr horny's b'day's coming!! someone's getting OLDER and has already stepped out of being a TEEN, since he's bcoming TWENTY. get it?? nevermind, i get my own joke and that's all that matters yea?? back to the point, mr horny is getting OLD and thus he has got to be more mature yea?!?!?!? and of course learn to be a lil' more sweet la. its all for your own GOOOOOD! consider your future yea!! if ya get what i mean.

been trying to steal time lately so as to get mr horny's present ready on time too. so yea, too much things to do, too little time!!

went to watch 'Body #19' last night with mr horny, and i swear, it totally grossed me out!! it should be rated M18 rather than NC16. its so frigging violent and sinister. however, the special effect was quite sucky as the cat looks fake. moreover mr horny was trying REAL hard to irritate me in removing my hands from my eyes and ears. protect and comfort instead man!! where'd the love go??

ok, i am suppose to be doing visual basic(VB) now, but somehow, vb now seems londa evil as there are codes such as 'doom' and 'deathbed'. the person who invented vb must be some emo freak.

digressing.......

TILA TEQUILA IS EFFING HOT~~!!

i'll seriously kill for her wardrobes man!! all those slutty clothes which does not look slutty once worn. aww man... and futhermore, how can an asian look so good in blond hair and yet at the same time not look like an ah lian???

oh yea.... i should be listening in class and not blogging. i actually had the intention of just blogging a one-liner who can resist the temptation of the words?!?!

alright, signing off,

loves,

chanel

love me for a reason, let the reason be love

2008-01-12T20:05:00.000+08:00

NOTHING BUT PROBLEMS

well, all i can say is that year 2008 has been nothing but a hell wreck of problems. seriously, all the new year greetings from loved ones does not seem to be working.

although it was not as terrible as what i've experienced last year, it still disheartens me just to think of it. furthermore, now that i'm not working, i seem to be a burden to my dad and my brother as my dad is facing a slight financial my dad's asking him to contribute even more . seems like i really need to start working fast and stop depending on them AND also contribute to the family.

i feel like i'm seriously suffering from chronic fatigueness, although i know that it is partly of my PMS-ing like mad. my cramps are killing me even more then usual for unknown reasons and my mood swings are just terrible. feeling all 'emo' like what my facilitator daniel will say.

even when i try to find solace in dance, the conflicts that the two cliques are facing is excruciating. 3 weeks has past but not a single dance step has been chereographed. furthermore, the presentations in 5 weeks. which means, we are only left with 5 weeks to perfect the dance.

due to my PMS, my temper has got the better of me and people around, which includes Mr horny, are definitely affected. anyway, i'm sorry mr horny for everything............
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HOLY CRAP!!! this shit is scaring me!!! the door bell has been ringing for the past 5 mins but here's no one outside!! furthermore, for the 5 mins it was ringing, i was standing at the peep hole and there was NOBODY!!! lotsa thanks to annabelle for accompanying me.

love,
chanel

happy 2008 !!!

2008-01-02T00:59:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

heya!! i'm back!! i've been kinda busy (and lazy ) to blog recently, so here i am and don't complain. anyway, its the new year!!!

went out wih mr horny, michelle and friends to kallang to catch the fireworks which will be AWESOME if we were nearer. pity we did'nt bring the camera.

since its the new year, all agree we should have some resolutions yea?? to those who have read my entry last year about new year resolutions, well, resolutions are part of celebating the new year yea?? be it achieved a not yea?

things that i've done in 2007:

- broke up with ricky which i almost died but learnt alot
- in love with mr horny and his crappy personality
- made a really silly mistake with rodney
- found a true friend in felicia
- a sister in annabelle
- made friends with alot of dogs
- screwed tp's auditions
- made into republic polytechnic and made lotsa new and good friends
- gotta laptop
- ran out of the house to stay with my mum and went home again
- china trip that strengthen family's bonds, saw great wall of china new found hobby skii-ing!!
- ah b died but BAM BAM takes over!!
- first car accident!! but it was REALLY minor. no worries.
- smoked for the first time
- did a super long 10hr photoshoot

new year resolutions for 2008:

- more faith in my Daddy God
- spend more QUALITY time with family and friends
- love myself more than ever
- LESS PROCRASTINATING
- be more involved in class especially during MATHS AND SCIENCE
- reduce shopping expenses (if only)
- earn more ka-chings $$$$$
- be less forgetful
- tone ABS......
- bike/car license (mr horny's gonna kill me)
- get islander card and UOB clear card
- try not to turn down modelling opportunities

think thats' all for now yea!! till i remember anything else to add......

love,
chanel

3rd day and x'mas eve

2007-12-24T13:47:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND NO PICTURES

there's something wrong with blogger for some unknown reason!! and i do admit, i'm seriously feeling very lazy, partly being really tired from all the christmas shopping.

anyway, christmas is here!! present presents presents. but we all should not forget the true meaning of christmas yea?? it's JESUS'S BIRTHDAY!! although i've heard that jesus was actually really borned on October.

oh well, continuation from the China trip, i cannot believe i'm only on the 3rd day, it's starting to feel like a chore man.

URGHH!!!!! I HATE BLOGGER MAN!!!!

i can't seem to upload ANYTHING!!! i've been sitting here for the past 1/2 hour just waiting for 4 PATHETIC PICTURES to load!!!

a very pissd girl i am.

breathe chanel, breathe.........

its Christmas, and you should not let anyone or ANYTHING get you down.

not even having a stupid curfew for coming home TOO LATE can get me down.

URGHH!!!! damn the curfew man!!!!

ok, happy thoughts.......

went to my aunt's house for Christmas party and definitely to collect gifts!! so far, my fav is the anklet my bro got me (wearing it right now), jessica's 'GORGEOUS' necklace, because i am and my dad's 'SEXY' eu de toilete ( which is perfume for those who do not know)

some of you may ask, what did mr horny get me, well........... HE HAS'NT GIVEN IT TO ME....!

SOBZ~~~~~~~~

went to his Christmas party too with annabelle and cassandra(anna's aunt) and played a couple of games like icebreaker games, human monopoly and circle of death (yes, THE drinking game)

took a couple of shots after the game and while mr horny was not around and it was an overall fun night, trying not to fall asleep watching bunnies dancing on the dancefloor on television.

made mr horny drive me home at 630 am and still he has not gave me my prezzie, saying that there was too many people around to pass it to me.

woke up to the reprimanding of my dad and since i was half asleep, i did not catch everything he said, only a few key points like:

-come home so late

-you've tested my patience

-if you insist on coming back can the drivers say no???

-i'll fetch you back by myself

-no more of this i tell you or i'll confiscate your keys

-latest by 230am!!!

these few key points are enough to make my blood run cold. for the first time in my whole entire 18 years of my life, i've got a FRIGGIN' CURFEW!!

think i'm gonna wallow in bed, sorrow and self denial for the rest of the afternoon.

love,

chanel

ps: please don't be so selfish and think only about yorself.

pss: anna just called me out for shoppin!! no more wallowing.

pss: since its x'mas, i've decided to change the song to 'WE ARE THE REASON' as i heard it in church, listen already can cry man. the true meaning of x'mas

As little children

We would dream of Christmas morn

Of all the gifts and toys

We knew we'd find

But we never realized

A baby born one blessed night

Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

*We were the reason

That He gave His life

We were the reasonThat He suffered and died

To a world that was lost

He gave all He could give

To show us the reason to live*

As the years went by

We learned more about gifts

The giving of ourselves

And what that means

On a dark and cloudy day

A man hung crying in the rain

All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living

It's in giving every part of my heart to Him

In all that I do every word that I sayI'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

He is my reason to live

pss:for some unknown reason, the paragraphs are all sticking together, very disgusting. help anyone??